Pushed To The Limit

Okay, so now everything is finally pissing me the fuck off. Everyone and everything is getting on my last nerves, it's only but a matter of time before my nerves finally snap. School is beginning to be a nuissance to me now. Why do I even still come to school? Maybe I haven't fully decided on going to college because I don't wanna go through another 4 years of stress. It's not my choice to go to school, I'm practically forced to go, but going to the military is my choice. I'll probably will more happier there than fucking school. Now the streets........

The streets has me guessing everyday that I get out my bed. What's gonna happen? Is someone gonna die today? Am I gonna be a victim of robbery? I can't take this anymore. Knowing that the streets are always hostile to anyone. I want to get away badly. But I have nowhere to go until I finish this dreaded year of stress and problems. Happiness for me only lasted but so long, where the fuck did it go? The things that I always want is the hardest to get. But that's life isn't it. Honestly, I fill a little better hitting things, maybe I should hit things more often. I'm happy to have good friends on my side and whatever, but they don't really know wtf I'm dealing with. Some things are just better off not said and I'm starting to realize that. 

And wtf am I always unheard? When I try to talk to people, they always busy or they too dumb or naive to understand wtf I said to them. I think it has something to do with the levels of understanding one another. Maybe my understanding level exceeds everyone else to the point it's too advanced for them. And wtf is women so damn complicated? Like seriously, I think they all have problems or something. Maybe it's just me that they do or say certain stuff to and not others. But on the real note, I'm done with everything. I would probably feel more better if I was isolated on a fucking island or something. Then I won't have to deal with everyone's bullshit. All my buttons has finally been pushed and I'm really starting to malfunction. I just want to be left alone.