Drastic Changes

I've come to realize that I am not the same how I use to be. What the hell is going on? It seems as if life is taking a negative toll on me, like for real. What ever happened to the football fanatic? What ever happened to the guy who use to draw and write poems. What ever happened to the non-violent kid who stayed outta trouble? I'm going through changes that now I'm really starting to realize. I quit on so such stuff it's not even funny man. I'm living a life of nostalgia right now, and can't do anything about it. I have the super urges to go back in time and change everything man. If I did that, maybe I would have a different perspective. As a matter of fact, I know everything would be different. I remember I use to look forward into going to college. How the fuck I go from college bound to military bound within months? It's just me I guess. Everything is just taking over man, and it's not good like on the stroke note. My main dream was to always be an NFL player. I had high hopes on that. Those dreams suddenly vanished out of nowhere. Now, I don't know what I wanna do with my life, and I just don't think college will help me figure out what I wanna do. OOhh well, is all I can say right now. Whatever happens, happens.