Consumption of Darkness

Well today I lost my lamp to my darkness. Everything seems so dark inside. No matter how bright I try to make it, darkness is consumes me. Everything feels different now. It's not the same. There's an emptiness in my heart that I felt before. Emptiness is suppose to be nothing, but in my heart, it's a living thing. Today, it came and whispered in my ear" I told you I'll be back".I feel like I have a cloud over my head that will never leave. By myself once again, alone in the dark surrounded by negative vibes. You're the only girl I "officially" loved and I still do. You caused me stress and at the same time, I caused you stress. I love you enough to let you go away from me and the burden of stress I gave you. If I was able to read your mind, figure out what I was doing wrong, I would've fixed it. But wishes is only for the blind people I guess. I thought we was going to last forever, but I guess I'm young-minded for thinking something like that. I would still like to know what I did wrong? Was I lacking something? Was there something I was not understanding? I guess some things is better off unanswered right? Now, I just think of it as we're both freed from relationship stress and relationships isn't my criteria. Some things is just not meant to be for me. We're still gonna be cool, but I'm not gonna look at you the same. If we stay friends, knowing that I have a friend that I once loved is gonna redundantly beat me in my head. Hmmmmmm........ Well, the only think we must do is move forward.